So, here I am. Today.
I got a divorce a month ago, after 23 years of marriage and decades of abuse.
Still disbelief that I did it. I did it. Still not sunk in I feel….
I want to share the story behind my “I did it” with you, the universe, because this is the place my journey into self recovery started. And today I don’t have a roadmap, but my wish is to heal just one person at a time. Time, yes…the time that I lost, my youth, my laughing and running behind them, cooking for them, and the time that I was not present there to stop the abuse. But I am trying….
For the first time I tried to write a “what do I want for me in life” List. That was 3 days ago. But today morning when I woke up, with a head full of dreams, and a smile on my lips, I knew I am going to be fine!
So, I share with you on the Moon!
What do I want in life for me? March 22, 2020
a. Laugh every opportunity I get with my girls and my friends.
c. Watch the sunset every day of my life for the rest of my life.
p. Just skipping alphabets, so I make sure I cover all alphabets in between….because A-Z includes all of us. And I have started my own collection, because you can’t tell a story without forming words ey? hehe
R. Be healthy, TRY my best, mentally and physically.
S. Be strong. Everyday let the universe breathe in me.
L. Make real connections. I found a few good people who held me up when I felt I was done!
T. Love without fear.
D. Do whatever to make sure i have roof and food for me and my daughters.
N. Experience life, start believing that I can have one.
F. Always keep dreaming n wishing n hoping. It’s not in me to give up, I just need to remember…which ain’t easy.
H. Heal n touch lives
J. Have a hand to hold and walk some of my life….I can exist alone but I want to experience human touch.
Z Be free of labels.
That’s all so far….
Thank you for listening!