I am waiting to fall in love…

“BPD makes me very sensitive to anything of beauty or a puzzle…

I like you

I believe in you

I think you are beautiful

I only see the good of you

you make me laugh or smile

I trust you..no questions asked..

I will certainly smile at you …

I am damaged because I I have BPD…..thats why I can’t see the bad in you, or that you have a hidden agenda, or you might rob me…or break my heart….

I am damaged …sick and ill and shunned….because I believed in you.

Made me cry a lot this morning…but I understand why I had to find the Moon to hide….my safe place. A place from where I can see… and I write to you what I see. What I am realising is “WHAT I HAD and LOST”…and if it didn’t work on planet earth…it might work on the moon. because I have run out of ideas….to try and make you SEE….to see what I see…



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About Me

An English diarist and naval administrator. I served as administrator of the Royal Navy and Member of Parliament. I had no maritime experience, but I rose to be the Chief Secretary to the Admiralty under both King Charles II and King James II through patronage, diligence, and my talent for administration.


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