I didn’t mean to hurt you…i am so sorry

I am lost…

Can i allow myself to hide …find BPD as an excuse for my behavior…

Which is inexcusable…

I received the following note from my therapist…when i reached out to her….


I cant stop crying…i was very bad towards my family


. Yes Raina, you did behave badly towards your family. This behaviour was because you were ill and didn’t know it. Now that you are aware of your illness and are being treated, you can begin to make amends with them.

I WANT to save someone from my kind of PAIN/ ILLNESS.

Happiness is POSSIBLE to be felt !

Get help!


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An English diarist and naval administrator. I served as administrator of the Royal Navy and Member of Parliament. I had no maritime experience, but I rose to be the Chief Secretary to the Admiralty under both King Charles II and King James II through patronage, diligence, and my talent for administration.


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