Yes…..I wanna be making x amount of money, be married, a car and a dog….
How will you achieve all these goals/desires you have?
I will work hard!
Who are you doing this for?
Will it make your heart smile?
Above is a normal healthy gym going, must be IT kinna… normal person…no?
BUT for me…a BPD…THERE IS SO MUCH CLARITY, as I discover something about me each day…I can feel the wind, I watch myself…I am able to identify my triggers…and stop myself from walking towards the dark!
I have a 30 year plan. Am just starting on a new me….ALTHOUGH I still don’t acknowledge my existence…
To be able to FEEL LIGHT, I NEED to smile.
Therefore…everything I DO, should get the desired result….to smile, to step out of my bubble,
haha…I can write today AFTER 2 years of THINKING about writing…working with my therapist for 2 years just to be able to write on this platform. I wrote on paper with pencil…..and then left them in the rain.
I want to feel ALIVE….
I want to smile….
yesterday was very hard…today I am alright with waking up and smiling….
The Ninth Sense 
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